lil emo but it's pain

aiyo....argh...i'm feeling emo again.
i dun even feel like doing my report although i must finish it asap..

i really want to say " to the heck to ITP report" but part of me can't...
something's distracting myself, n i juz can't help it....

it's like asthma attack u know....it comes n goes. And when it comes...it's bad.
*rush off and looks for cure* cure....asthma doesn't have 100% cure or medicine.

the symptoms tend to "hilang" for a while, sometimes for quite long, but when it attacks again.....
it's like "gotcha"..

argh, i dunno how ...maybe i am bad (interprete it anyhow you would like)

got once the symptom was so bad that i felt it , i need something stronger to overcome it...
and hey presto..
what a good way to overcome pain.....is with pain (physically or mentally) ..so, yea i tried.

now, i'm feeling to try some more, more or even better pain ...muahaha...might help, who knows..

bad things are happening quite often, not only to me...but to a lot of ppl. Wonder what's happening nowadays..it's like "yo yo, bad streak on the roll ya' all".

Accept, accept....that's what people always say.. but if they are in some situation same as other people....they won't say "ok la...accept accept mah" instead.. "accept ?? how to accept??? u know how i feel or not??" ...people..

gah........i rather juz go to bed now~ screw everthing if can. I would wanna say.. "screw you"..to anyone to offers me advice n bla bla. I hate ppl doin that when they can't even understand stuff...
"cb can go ***"..

n why do people ask "why why why?" coz ...they want to know...n why? they want an answer of the cause.

i wish i can scream, i also wish i can cry out...but currently, there's no one.....anymore.. so i'll cry out to my little towel then...