lil indon song

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun
Aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu, kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku, kau lah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

-Kenangan terindah-

But i dun want it to end....huhuhuh..
Can i stay in the dream forever? *sniff*

Once again,
그 무엇보다 널 사랑해 그랬던 것 같아
T_T *sniff*

lil dream~~

hmm...
i wished this is all juz a bad dream, a lil bad dream...
wanna wake up from it, but i can't wake up..
how come?

i wished i juz can say out everything i want to, but i can't..
i get tougue-tied...maybe i'm too scared about the risk that i'm gonna face.

hate myself~~

lil turn

i'm keeping something inside me...
i do not dare to say it out, coz i'm afraid..

afraid of rejection, afraid of being ignored, afraid of losing something..

all these are kinda of making me feel very 'tight' inside...which i wanna slap myself for it.

yerp, i still blame myself, it's all my fault..
it's right when a guy friend say i " char",
maybe i really am ..

Question: should i even say it out?

lil what am i doin?

can someone pls tell me what am i doin?

stressful and tension.

i miss hugs, i meant real hugs, not pillow hugs, not teddy bear hugs.
&
sometimes, it's juz nice n happy to see someone we care about so deeply happy. Eventhough, how much we are hurt, how much it tears us apart, we still do it, coz they juz mean so much than we ever thought they did.

Why be so nice, other ppl might ask. It's juz the care n the feelings inside us that made us do like that. Any favours in return? not really, we are always assuming the worst case condition.

way to go.....

lil me now

all these months, it's been hard. it's been very very hard..
i know i haven been as what i should be before this...

it's tearing me up apart in a way...
luckily no knife in my room, if not...(guess urself)

i wished there was someone that i can cry to....other than my pillow..

busy week is here anyway...it's like do or die week..

-lil me-

lil lil

this is tearing me up.....

i juz do not want to study anymore, do not wanna do anything..

no goals for now btw.

lil gloomy

:( it's that day again~

argh argh argh argh
sometimes i'm afraid to say something, coz i'm scared that i would say something wrong. I have the tendency to say something...........n if the response is bad, then i'll regret it.

man.... this is hard, harder than i expect ..

"그 무엇보다 널 사랑해 그랬던 것 같아" miss those hugs

-lilme-

lil untitled

why am i feeling more hurt than ever?

*ponders* now i hate myself....

guys can do what ever they want, n not get so hurt, dammit..

hate myself, hate myself, hate myself, falalalala...hate myself